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gonna be another sleepless nights again . screw your temper fuckhead omar,
i dun have the guts to ask for an apology now . as usual, i screwed things up .


get some good rest yea . i l o v e y o u .


i wanna be there for like, forever with you . please gimme this chance god.
i swear i'll treat her better then anyone else in this world .
i really pray for a day where we get to be together, hand in hand, walking down the aisle, getting married.
i dont know what overcame me . im too harsh with my words . god, please help me control my temper .
now shes upset . for the first time, she dint tell me shes gonna sleep .
i dowan this to carry on. i really dowan this to happen again .
someone please, help me . god if you're really fucking there, help me out please .
my life has been shit for the past few days .
i dowan this to have an effect on her .
i dont know if shes gonna read this . i dont know if she thinks im just writing it down out of, just writing this down .
i really mean what i've said .
i cnt imagine life without you . i really cnt . i've waiting long enough to have me in your heart. i dowanna wait another long time to get me back into your heart .
you're the only person whom i've loved this much and it is still growing deeper .
none has ever made me cry during late nights, thinking how much i need you .
you're someone i can never forget no matter how deep you're gonna hurt me which i believe you will never .
now i am scared if i will be the one hurting her instead .
she dreamt of me leaving her a lot of times . i hope that remains as dreams only .
i know my love is sincere . i know i would love no one but her .
the memories we had are what that kept me going .
i guess words are never enough to describe how much i love her .
i should show, not write it down . that would be better .
whatever it is, i wanna apologise for my harsh words . i guess its up to you if you wnna accept my apologies or not .
with sincerity, i love you, Jessica .